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[littlefairytale]

A bit more relaxed, Ruby groans with the dramaticness of the young woman she still is despite it all. "It sounds so much easier when you say it than when I try it..."

She breathes. "I know— I know I was. Am. A good Huntress. I was on my way to being a known name in the tournament scene, once. And I have helped people."

The urge for her to 'but' these statements is visibly being restrained.

[itsjustabaddream]

"But you had some struggles. Which are normal. And that's okay," Neil fills in for her. If she needs to add a 'but', then let it be one that is fair to herself. "They didn't stop you from being a good Huntress overall."

[littlefairytale]

There's still a visible feeling of wanting to push back, but she resists it. Breathes slowly out her nose and nods. "...yeah. You're— right."

It shouldn't be so hard to say, but at least she says it.

"And I still want to help people. Even if... picking up a weapon is difficult sometimes." Her sword never leaves her side, but that's not quite the same as wielding it and she wonders if she'd ever be able to pick up Crescent Rose again like this.

[itsjustabaddream]

"There are ways to help with and without a weapon," Neil assures her. "All in your own time. But I do think working towards reconnecting with that part of yourself would make you the happiest long term."

[littlefairytale]

"Yeah. I want to. I know— I know it sounds weird to a lot of people, but my weapons have been a part of me since I was a little girl. It's— strange, feeling so disconnected."

She understands why so many people find it alarming, now, but her world is what it is and she has always been the kid who sees your weapons as a reflection of your soul.

[itsjustabaddream]

"No, I think I can understand why. From what you've told me, the culture around weapons where you're from is highly personalized. A weapon is an extension of the self, a reflection of one's character, one's manner of fighting," Neil agrees easily. And he's being genuine--- it truly does make perfect sense. "And if combat is such a massive part of your life, then it stands to reason that your tool for participating, which is highly specialized to you and your needs, should have immense sentimental value."

"So, you have two choices. Either learn to fully let go of that connection, or reapproach that relationship and restore it. It's up to you what is best for you, but if I were to make an educated guess, it would be the latter."

[littlefairytale]

"Yeah. Yeah, that's... that's exactly it. I guess... I guess I have time to work on it, it's not like I have Crescent Rose or Summer's Thorn here and even a simplified recreation would be a huge undertaking."

She's adjusting to the new tools, materials and methods of weaponsmithing but her weapons tend towards the complicated end even by her world's standards.

[itsjustabaddream]

"I imagine so, from what you've told me about them. I do hope I get to see one of your weapons someday, I imagine they're quite beautiful." Neil seems genuine in his enthusiasm. It's no secret that he and Ruby appear to have similar aesthetic taste, right down to a mutual favorite color. "I do think part of it will come from separating the idea of weapons as an extension of the self from the idea that combat is who you are. Those things don't have to be mutually exclusive. You are a Huntress, but also more than that. You are a friend, a blacksmith, a student, a human being. All of those things are just as valuable."

[littlefairytale]

Ruby pulls one of those subtle faces that says this is one of those ideas she has trouble with. She's put so much weight on that one part of her identity over the last few years, maybe even her entire life, that it's hard to imagine everything else outside of it.

"That's— going to be a difficult one, heh. But it sounds about right."